Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Life & Death

My life, it seems to evolve around the word "Death". Just as it seems that news about death were about to cease down, i was having my 3rd meeting in class when ika actually told me that a malaysian actor had passed on. Hani Mohsin is the name. Hmmm..quite taken aback and surprise actually because everything seems fine and there were no news of them being sick or whatsoever..just like the 2 ITE girls, the Mufti brother and Ishak Ahmad. Even before this latest news came about, seeing this death everywhere on the news, it hit me. Death can come anytime regardless of our age. I have heard this sentence many times but i was ignorant then. Some people died of humiliation whereas some in great peace..And it sets me thinking...how i would died...whether i had the chance to ask for forgiveness from everybody, whether i would died dalam keadaan diredhai suami and most importantly..if i got the chance to repent and served Him with great humility. Seems scary it seems and some people just doesnt seem wanna change for the better despite repeated advise. So are we at fault if they dont wanna listen? I mean we ourselves may not be that good either but at least we tried to avoid whichever stuffs that are sin like when it comes to halal and haram. Sometimes i just wonder..that with us aging a year older each year, SUPPOSEDLY we should be get more wiser and at least repent..if not at one go..at least bit by bit. But that doesnt seem to be the case. People seems to be more engross with the things in this world which is only temporary. Sometimes i just wonder when i see these malay/muslims apart from the young generation, the old people those of age 40-50 plus..still drink in public..in coffeeshops..more ashamed when they did that during the month of ramadhan instead of repenting..i felt ashamed that they represent Islam in a way and still drinks like nobody business. Though the youngsters seem to be proud to let others know they drink, at least they are till young and perhaps naive but old people?? hmmm no comment. Dont get me wrong..im not discriminating..Im just stating a fact and im straightforward..dont tell me being frank is a crime? if u felt hurt..perhaps i already hit the nails on the head.


Hani Mohsin tinggal dalam kenangan. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya dan ampuni segala dosa2nya ketika hayatnya.

My hard disk is spoiled..AGAIN!!! Some people just dunno the word RESPECT. Not only was it taken out of my bag without my permission, it was spoiled after being passed around the class. No initiative was taken to even apologise if not for taking without permission..but at least for spoiling it for heaven sake! Even my close friends doesnt dig into my bag w/o my permission. This is surprising aye?!! This is what you get for being too nice to people...they take your things w/o permission - i didnt say a word. They spoil it - i didnt say a word. No apology given for both occassions - i never say a word. But fortunately with God grace..i was calm and patience that i didnt even feel angry until when it is spoiled..i wasnt angry either but what twirls in my mind was now i hafta fork out my money again to change the cover or wire..whatever you call it..and to think i just change it last may. But just dont test my patience to the limits. With me being quiet...dont think that i can be taken advantage of...im just giving face and keeping quiet..you never wanna see me erupt for nasty words would just come out from my mouth when i get farking pissed off. Most of the time i tried not to get my feelings take control over me. Whatever difficulties i face..I know God is on my side and he will help me.

Seriously, eversince when..i dunno why but have this funny feeling that i just dont wanna care about things in this world anymore. This world and its people are nasty. The only nice one is God. tom is Circuit test and MATHS!! HELP! gonna be another farting day...oh God..help me with this one.

Posted by =Im-tOxI-kaTe-d= at 7/26/2006 04:39:00 PM