Thursday, February 08, 2007

8 February 2007..
Marks the 11th year my dad had passed away..
And it's just so happen it is thurs night..
cos 8 Feb 1996 was on thurs night too..

The number 11 is unique number to me..
while i only managed to live with him for only 11 years of my life
it also had been 11 years since he left the family.
And out of the 11 years of my life with him...
I could only remember the memories we had from when i was 7...
so i only have 4 years worth of memories to hold on to..
of which...the 4 years of memories is slowly fading away as years gone by..
But i try to hold on to it as long as i can..
so that even if it is 20, 30 or 40 years down the road...
i never forget him..
havent got a chance to be a good daughter to him...
neither do i got the chance to take care of him..

i watched a variety show where celebrities talked about their personal backgrounds..
and this entertainer said "A mum is the loneliest daughter when she is a mum"
It's true...
i noe my mum gone through alot since..sacrificing for the family...
always putting her priorities aside and put the family first...
and never once let her sorrows shown..
so i promised to try my best to be a good daughter and take care of my mum...
although i noe i have not! hehe..
Om-mo-ni...saranghae! hehehe...

Also while my dad passed on on a thursday night..my pri 3 form teacher, Mrs Rafia Swee passed on on the fri morning. So the funeral was on the same day and surprisingly, her grave was just next to my dad.

Semoga Allah merahmati roh mereka dan diampunkan segala dosa kecil dan besar. amin.
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Poked my eyes real bad the other day...it was the worst accident ever happened to me..although from the physical outlook..i look okay...but i could barely open my eyes. It was swollen that even lifting the eyelid was painstaking. you can feel the eyes and the skin of your eyelids rubbing against each other. So in the end i look through one eye..but even that was painstaking because it put a strain on the other eye...and hence it got watery too...Worse..i got test that day...the teacher was looking at me..kinda concerned cos i was really struggling to refer to the powepoints and writing answers on the sheets with the working watery eyes. I couldnt finish it. They were making a joke out of it...because i can really be compared to the partially blind people lol...atika sent me til clementi..thanks ya..hehe. But now ALhamdulillah...i regained my health..and that made me so thankful. gotta absent myself from micro mod cos my eyes got real bad...though i cant absent anymore...but i really dah tawakal lah...if i can get a D for micro..i'd be just as thankful...Please let me get a D or D+....amin.

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LAst day of school next monday. Tuesday started work with idah at sci ctr again. Alhamdulillah...got the job..was praying hard i could get it..so lucky my old supervisor got me in. As for ika deary..dont be dishearten alright. I know it felt bad though you worked for them before. But i guess its just not your time yet perhaps. There will be a job for you insyaAllah...Derrick said prolly after chinese new year. Believed that there are always things planned out for you ok? hehe.

School closing and the most thing im sad about is that i wont be able to see my japanese guy again cos he already graduating!! boOoHOoo....why must i got a huge crush on him eh??haha..He not really full japanese...he's of malay and japanese parentage...Its very rare to see a japanase to convert to muslim and marry a malay. He looks like chinese but speaks fluent malay and acts like a malay but you never expect his dad is actually a japanese. haha. i like how he made himself look slack and wear simple clothes and not showing any signs of wealth in him despite living in a bungalow. Its funny how i just love to see his face at first and smile at him when i saw him and he smiled back. But as i developed crush on him...i couldnt even faced him!!!!!!! muahahaah...aiseh...he's gone for good...boHooOoo...hope to see him somewhere outside some day..heh. Dork.

Posted by =Im-tOxI-kaTe-d= at 2/08/2007 09:12:00 PM