Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Things hasnt been going on well for me.
Well it isnt tat bad..just that as if there's a lot of things going on at one time..ya know?
When they say PP(professional profiling) report must be 2000words...i went whoa..
I never believed i could write that long.
I started my PP on sunday. Had done research on the websites so just left to be read.
By monday, my PP almost covered 2000 words..or maybe over? haha..
It is really long..not that i have lot to write abt one topic..
but the elaboration are seemingly long.LOL.
Dont be mistaken. Im not complaining. Im so awed with myself right now. muahahaaa...

Condolences to Hetty on the passing on of her grandma. Sorry tak melawat.
Mudah-mudahan Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya. Amin.

FYP report guidelines just came out. From now til week 15(now ending of week 11),
we need to make a whole set of report..not more than 100 pages...
yep you read it right. Its 100 pages.
But then, who on earth would wanna do that long?
And you think this lazy facis would wanna read everything?haha..doubt so.
But still..we need to get by about 20 over pages? thats alot.

Frankly speaking, i know i dont contribute much to my FYP.
Not that i dont want to..just that the skills i have is not as good as theirs..maybe.
You know there'll be things you think or know you can do..
but then others would do it thinking you cant.
So in the end you really feel like as if you cant do at all?
And i kinda end up doing nothing.
I feel so extra with the rest being ex-classmates.
sometimes i felt like as if they dont trust me that i can do it.
Or they would question you like.. "ok if i let you do now, can you do it?"
of course i was stunned.
Not that i can guarantee it'll be perfect, at least i did want to try to do something for the team.
Even if i can do it, its not something to announce at.
Its like i will do quietly and show only when i got the result.
So i just say 'can..' half-heartedly because the way they make it sound like.."see..cannot right.."
I already have so low confident in myself for the FYP and you lower it further.
And the minute people read about this..
they say..Kat always got things to complain..
I hate it when people say things that upset me. Really hate it.
As if they never complain anything in their whole fucking life.
Sometimes i got so upset i really felt like asking them to keep their mouth shut. Really.

Anyway, i did broke one of the leg of the RF receiver while trying to wire-wrap.
Earlier on somebody already wire-wrap but the wire just came off because of me ahaha.
So i thought i will just help to wire-wrap again.
But because the leg had been wire-wrap on and off..
it got fragile since it is so small and it broke.
its my fault for not being careful.
But they are kind enough to let it go.
And phyu phyu fixed it. Thanks. And now its working well.
40 mins presentation on week 15 with 5 judges..
i pray to Allah Eugene Tham is not one of them. Amin.
And i pray to Him to let me go through this smoothly..Amin.

Im trying to acquire new language. Just having fun learning it you know.
Who knows it can turn out to be a positive things for me in future. amin.
While researching for my PP(topic=benefits of multilingual), i come across this website.
You can actually find someone who is a native speaker of the language you are learning
and talk to them over skype. Fun isnt it?
But skype is totally new to me. I scared to use it.
So for a start im finding people to teach me hehhe..
The language shall be a secret but i guess ika should know. hehe.

Haiz.....life so stressful..... wished i was born intelligent.

Posted by =Im-tOxI-kaTe-d= at 7/17/2007 11:07:00 PM