Sunday, January 18, 2009

At this current moment, i feel burdensome. I feel burdensome asking people for help or even a small favour. Even if i do, i really consider it carefully before i ask. I dont care if im the one to help people out even if it will make me on my wits end. But asking people for help sometimes, you dont even know what they were thinking..they might just think you're a nuisance..or help with a tinge of reluctance that sometimes it is being shown clearly on the face. In one word, its insincere. At times, even borrowing a small item can be such a big deal to them and it amused me that in what terms can this small help be a handful when the item is there and all i need is to borrow it just a while. Speaking of selfishness. When its their turn to get help from me, i relented willingly? Sometimes, after seeing those vague reluctance expression - half trying not to show & half already being shown on the face, it makes me think...that if thats what i get for asking a small favour, there wont be a next time asking from help from that person. In my view, small favour is nothing especially within friends..it just shows how much you are already comfortable with your friends and they wont mind helping. But for bigger help, really, I always remind myself not to ask people for help unless i am really in dire need of help. And i hate it that i have to do it when i got no choice. Darn.

Posted by =Im-tOxI-kaTe-d= at 1/18/2009 02:06:00 AM